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hi, hope all is well out there. Its just one of those days for me.

I've come to the conclusion...

That I need a major change in my life. Something to take my mind off of things. I wish I had some extra money right now, I would go to a Hotel for the night or something. Just to get away. Get my mind in the right order. I heard on the radio that alot of people get depressed this time of year. But to remember the sun comes up tomorrow again. How weird is that? Too weird.

Happy Thanksgiving!

First off, Happy Thanksgiving to all.

Second, I am done with my job, don't think I can handle going back to that place after last night. I want them to feel the pain I am enduring for them. Getting promoted and for being there a year, all I get is a .75cent raise??? BULLSHIT. I feel I am worth more than that. ALOT more. If they are going to have me doing 2 peoples jobs then they can pay a little more. FUCKERS!!!

Some things are messed up.

Ok, I really haven't talked about this at all. I have talked with some person a long time ago. We hit it off, we kinda liked each other and so forth. Well I haven't heard from him in a long time. He just called me today. He left his girlfriend.....finally. I told him that I didn't like the idea of him living with her and seeing me on the side. So I said to him. Be true to yourself and to her. I am not happy about the idea of them splitting. I was just friends with him...thats it. Nothing more, I swear. Well he just asked me if there was a chance. Told him that right now I have no time for myself. Let alone someone else in my life besides my child. My Son comes first and foremost. He said something about coming and seeing me at my work this coming weekend. I don't want to be bothered at my place of employment. OMG, and he cut his hair. He does not look good with his hair long, he looked shabby and gross looking. I am wondering why he is doing this to me now.

Wassup!!

Ok yesterday went well. Not once was I called to register. That is cool. I hate working the register. Well wait, once they did and I was on lunch. So I didn't have to touch anyone's dirty money at all. I feel that way cause of what you can catch from touching their money. I keep a bottle of hand sanitizer with me now. Not taking any chances. Well today is going to be fun I am going on a field trip with my Son's class to the Festival of Trees.

Ready for tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be a good day. One I am off and two I am going on a field trip with my son to the Festival of Trees. I am so excited. I can't wait. It will be fun for us. But then the fun starts. I work Wednesday night til midnight. How rude is that? I hate working nights. Then off on Thursday to enjoy Thanksgiving. Then pure torture begins. I am sure others feel the same way.
Today though will be the breaking point for me. If they say one dam thing to me about missing Friday, I will be fine. Fire me for being sick. I will just draw unemployment. Fuckers. I won't put up with their sick today. I only have my period once every whenever it comes. So that means its heavy as hell. And the cramps are horrenduous. I am talking 5 inbuprophen to kill the pain. But that doesn't even touch the pain. I am going to call the doctor today and tell him, I am done....fed up. Something has got to go here. I can't have this once every 5 months. He needs to find out why this keeps happening to me. Well I got to go to work. I will post more later on my day.

I am feeling a bit better.

I feel a tad bit better minus the horrendous cramps I've had for the past two days. I am going to call the doctor tomorrow. This should not have to happen like it does. I am staying home today and relaxing. Not going anywhere. I want to focus on some things here. Wish me luck!

I want to say something to a sweet dear friend of mine online. Her name is Molly, she is the sweetest person you will ever meet. She is only a teenager but she acts like she is a 20 year old. She IM'd me on the 20th to talk to me about someone who died earlier that day. I am not a expert on death but I felt like I had to be strong for Molly. She is totally devastated. She told me that Andrea was the only one who could tell her the right things. I could tell in that instant that she truly cared for Andrea. It broke my heart. I really didn't know the Andrea person that well, until I read her memorial page and I did nothing but cry because of the people she touched. My heart goes out to Andrea's Family and to Molly. She is a true Angel. Molly Girl keep your sweetness and don't ever let anyone get you down. So if you guys can go and visit her and cheer her up it would be appreciated. I will miss her not posting. Thanks!!

Saturday Morning Blues.

Ok I definately have the Sat. Morning blues. All night I felt like the Mississippi river. The worst is yet to come at this time of the month(year) for me.

I am suppose to go to my friends house today to visit but I don't know if I can handle going over there. Nothing against her just my tummy hurts and I am not in the mood to be around anyone. I am cramping like a son of a bitch. I think right now I am going to take a hot bath and relax. Sound good to you? Does to me. Then off to the Pharmacy for some meds. I need my Ibuprophen to control the pain and other thing too.

Aunt Flo is in town!!!

I absolutely think this is the worst visitor ever to visit me. I do not enjoy her company, her rudeness and the pain she causes me. Its been since June since she was last here, so its gonna be rough. I am still going to scrapbook its the only way to relax and maybe just maybe she will just leave with my boredness.

Onto a much lighter note, I didn't go to work today cause of my cramps. I am afraid I would of snapped on my boss today. Cause I found out I would of been the only cashier today. That is freakin' bullshit. ANYHOOOO!

I went to Walmart today and did some shopping. I found the newest Home Alone Movie, that makes 4 now. My son just loves these movies. Its a weird coincidence because on our first date of his Father and I, we went and saw Home Alone. I had on a pink sweater and we went to Rudy's Tacos for dinner. It was a wonderful night.

I am trying to figure out what to have for dinner tonight. I am not in any mood to make a 4 course meal or anything. Maybe I can ask his Father if he would want to take us out or something. That would be awesome if he did that. I went to the store today and bought stuff for Thanksgiving. I bought a Ham, Potatoes, Green Beans and some stuffing. I am waiting to buy the buns and other misc. things. I am assuming my family is going out to eat that day. I cannot afford to go out and eat because of financial reasons. So to better help it will be my son, myself and my Ex-hubby. Just the three of us....maybe. I am going to my favorite website here shortly then off I go.

Freakin' Pissed.

Ok, I am now officially pissed at my work. I wasn't until I realized at 8pm that I didn't have my break yet....AGAIN. I have to ask to take a break and whine to the FES. My God people. I did my work and left early. I could not handle the people I work with there. I am comtemplating on changing jobs. Something closer to home. I work in Iowa. I live in Illinois. About 23 miles from home. Don't seem like much but it is. Well off to bed, I worn out and the pain pills are kicking in. Whoo HOO.

Time?

Ok I need to make a list of things to do. If I don't things won't get done. This weekend is my last two days off in a row for 2 weeks. I am going to enjoy the days scrapbooking. That is number on my agenda. I just like to design the pages. Also I am going to make my Christmas Cards for the Exchange on Sis-2-Sis Board. I am so excited about participating a big turn out. It is going to be nice to recieve a bunch of cards this year. The sad thing is I save all of my Christmas Cards from previous years. So ladies, remember that I will be looking at the cards for years to come. I will be able to enjoy all the friends I have made online via Sis-2-Sis. I finally feel like I belong to something.

Now for work, tonight is going to be a easy night. Why you ask? The 2 Managers are in Omaha,Neb. helping open a new store. Cool. Then my favorite co-worker is closing tonight. That means out early. And me being Lead Sales, I get to tell the Associates below me what to do. Its my first night being in charge so its going to be interesting. I am going to be tough cause the store is in shambles. Not enough people closing from what I heard. Well the problem to fix that is HIRE MORE PEOPLE. My goodness its not that hard to do. I wish I could be manager for a day. I would look at each employee record on attendance. If they are "sick" consistently, then they can find employment elsewhere. Cause how can you show up for 2 days a week when your scheduled for 4. Sad. Anyhooo. I will post when I get home tonight a little after 11pm to let you know how it goes. I have to work early tomorrow, so it won't be much.

My 2 do list today:
1. Dry clothes
2. Wash the darks
3. Clean my car out. ( MY GOD ITS DIRTY)
4. Take a bath*****enjoyed for an hour****
5. Get a haircut.*****done*****
6. Buy some underwear *****done*****
7. Buy some shoes*****done*****
I love my new shoes they are awesome.

Wednesday already?

Wow I can't believe its Hump Day already. I've worked my 24 hours in the past 3 days. Cool I love it. I am just worn out. Today is one of my days off.

You know something that royally pisses me off. I went to a ATM last night to get some money out for ice cream. Well it tells me its unable to complete transaction. I am thinking why, I know there is money in there. It doesn't tell me anything else. So I get home and check my balance and it says they took the money out. OH HELL NO. I can't wait til the bank opens I am going to fucking burst thru the ceiling if they say I got the money and I didn't. I have a witness too. And it took forever for the machine to say that. It was like someone was in control of the machine. It had to dial out. I've never heard a ATM doing that. So I will get my money back. Bitches. Otherwise I am going to a different bank. They have been so terrible with customer service. Just like the one day, I got to the drive-up at 730...when they open. They didn't open for 20 minutes. Bitches made my son and I late for school and work, so I called the head office and complained. Its bullshit that they did that. They can't say they weren't there. Cause HELLO, hours open at 730 and both cars were there. SO they can go to hell. Well I got to make my phone call. I am soooooo ready for a fight right now. They will hate me, but its my FUCKING money dammit.

I GOT THE JOB!

I can finally say officially. I got the Lead Sales Associate Job. I've been waiting for this position to come open. And it did, I jumped on it. Finally 40hours and benefits. And if I am over on my time I get to go home early. Whoo Hoo. I wasn't able to say anything cause they had to inform the other person that I got the job. Well, it seems now that she won't talk to me. You know what? Oh well...I've been there longer so she can kiss my ass. It takes a special kind of person to do this job. I can see her NOT doing it. The person before me didn't do it. She is in the Army and had a rough time doing it. She had Drill once a month and she was devastated after that drill. She is young and married with no children. Which I don't see how she can be so worn out. But then again I can. Well enough said, I am off to take little man to McDonalds. Its our every two week thing after payday. Later Folks.

Hump Day Post!

Ok I am back to work after a 4 day hiatus. Hey I am not the one who does the scheduling. But now comes the tough schedule. I am cool with it. I guess you can say money talks. I just can't wait til' I start. I am sure I can post my news now but I want to make sure its ok. So when I go in today I will know more. My Cell phone has been turn-off because of lack of money. Just getting back to work money has been tight. I will have it turned back on tomorrow for sure. I can't live without it. Plus on a Thursday Night, a friend of mine and I watch ER together...yes on the phone. its been a ritual for us. We used to live really close to each other. Well off to take a joyous bath. I have to be at work at 9am. Not used to that time. Hope I can make it. LOL.

Learning new things.

Ok besides Scrapbooking, I am constantly learning HTML. No I am a surefire idiot when it comes to computer lingo. My Mom on the other hand is a Pure Genius. I guess working for a Internet Company pays off. But I wish you all knew how smart my Mom is. When it comes to Computers and stuff. She starting going to school and stuff over 6 years ago. I can't believe its been that long. I remember picking her up from school when my son was just a baby. Maybe just maybe if you all took the time to get to know my Mom she is the greatest person in the world. With her Candle Business doing extremely well she is so happy doing it. That is why she doesn't post as much as she used too. She comes up with all these ideas. She will walk into a store and think to herself. Can I get this to do this? Or she will ask us kids for advice on colors and so forth. Like her Cappuccino Glass with Whipped Cream on top. She asked me that at the store. I didn't think much of it at the time. But it turned out Beautiful. Everytime I go to her house I see the ideas she says she has done. And OMG. To see them on the internet is one but to see them in person. HOLY POOP!!!! My Mom would never steal someones idea, she is like the next person. She sees something and adds a little something more or does something totally different. I have seen several things on eBay that are similiar to hers. There are some that are awesome. But it also takes time to get that good. Mom has come a long way to get to the perfectionist level she is at. But she now has right hand worker. Her Beautiful Wonderful Mother. She recently retired and found her newest hobby. Helping my Mom. I think that is wonderful. Ok enough of my Mom. I sound like a dotting Mom on her child. Later Folks.

Day Off!!

Ok its my day off but I am busy trying to get the rest of my junk out of the trailer. Man, didn't realize how much crap I have. not much left just trying to get it out and in storage. With no boxes is hard. So I am just going to take it over to the storage unit and put in boxes there. I will post more later just in a hurry to get done to watch my Days of our Lives. I haven't been able to watch it in over a week. Having withdrawals....bad.

Sunday morning post.

Its Sunday, and I am bored. I am heading over to my friends house about 12pm to work on a layout for my work. Plus to visit with her and her boys. Haven't seen them since Labor Day Weekend. I've been so busy and so forth don't have much time. Now with things changing even more, I won't be seeing too much of my friends. But hey.....Money talks you know. I am off to enjoy a nice hot bath right now. Catch me later.

Busy day...home and worn out.

OK today was suppose to be a day with my friend Dawn and her babies. Well it turned out to be with my sisters and Mom. My Mom is ok, but when you get all 3 of us girls in one room. Its total chaos. We went over my work so my Mom could get some supplies for her candles, so she can make me some...hint hint. My bad. I love my Mom though she does a wonderful job making them. I am so worn out. Too much crap. Tomorrow I am finishing my moving, then I am going to work on my scrapbooking. I have some pages that need to be finished. Wish I could find a layout to post my stuff.

Can't Sleep.

I can't sleep right now. I am to overly excited about the things going on in my life. I am looking up and sometimes down. But right now, if things go as planned I will have my own apartment again...and Soon. The trailer thing wasn't for me. Having the surgery put me in a bad bind. But I should never of moved here to begin with. Anyhow, I need to get some sleep. I fell asleep for about 10 minutes earlier and now I am buzzing. I feel like a child with ADD. Sad uh? Well off to bug my Mom for a few more minutes.

I'm so excited.

I have some news, but I really can't say yet. I am just sooo excited. When I can actually say something I will announce it. Trust me its worth the wait. I feel like things are actually starting to go my way. For once in my life I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I will post more later, just have alot to do right now.

Mom's Test

Hi its me Toni.. Christy's Mom.. trying to fix her comment section ..

No Comment Section.

If there is anything you would like to say or comment, you can email me here at pookee004@yahoo.com I have to sweet talk my Mom into setting up a comment section for me. If that is possible. Will post more later, I have to get little man ready for school. Otherwise I am going to be late. AGAIN!!!! to work.

Moment of Silence.

This has nothing to do with Scrapbooking or anything. The recent Helicopter attack overseas really hit me emotionally. My co-worker came into work on Tuesday, he's in the National Guard. He knew the gentlemen very well. He went to my boss and asked for the night off because they were having a meeting in regards to Bruce Smith, one of the casualities of the downed helicopter. It hit so close to home and to me. I was watching the news Tues. Night and they had the new broadcasts of him. Because he truly is a a Hero. Never a accident. He made sure his comrades went down as softly as he could. At first they said his injuries weren't life threatening when he later died. My co-worker look terrible. It looked like someone had beat him up. His eyes were so swollen from crying. We still have a couple from our area that are injured. My hearts and prayers go out to them and their families. You know it seems that since President Bush said the War is over. Why is it that some of our Heroes gets killed everyday??? I mean there is not one day that goes by that we hear of someone getting killed. I mean WTF? Am I right? The War isn't over, its just beginning. I am afraid for all the men and women who are serving and sacrificing their lives for us. Us in meaning, the entire world. I am praying for the Brave Soldier who died for us on Tuesday. Thank you for being there and helping us. If it weren't for our Heroes, we would not have freedom.

OK...finally made a post on my surgery.

Ok, so I am slow with posting to my site as well. I don't care. I have another blog for my surgery. Didn't think it would look right here in my Scrapbooking website. So as soon as it gets published. I will put a link up. Not much to say now, I have to get little man ready for school.

The B*tch is Back!!!

Ok folks, I am here temporarily for the most part. I am stressed, tired and worn out. I will be posting my Surgery story soon. I just have some things to be done here and don't have alot of time to "play" on the computer. Its a rainy dreary day here and it totally sucks. I was in such a hurry yesterday that I locked my keys in my car, and was having a panic attack at work. They all saw a side of me and was totally freaked. I live my life on a schedule everyday to a Tee. That means this much time here and there. Not much time for play anymore. Well I have some stuff to do.

I had a nice lunch with my Mom,Sister, my niece and nephew. Nice and relaxing. I love my nieces and nephews so much. I will catch you all later.