I got the help.

I got the help I needed thru Modestneeds.org. I just got the confirmation today in my email. I am so excited. I won't lose my stuff in storage. Yes I was worried deeply. But its on its way. WHOO HOO!! There is a God and I think he might love me.

Anyhow, I am doing good. I am at Dawn's house for the moment checking emails and stuff. I will catch ya'll up later on some stuff.

Love yahs!

Doing fine.

We are doing fine. We are at my Dads. Yesterday was good until we heard the sirens. There was an apartment building that caught fire up the alley from us. I felt bad for the families involved. It was hard seeing the kids without shoes and crying for their toys. It broke my heart. Well off to Walmart. To buy myself a new coat.

ModestNeeds.org came thru

WOW. What can I say? I applied at their website for help with my storage unit. Ok, I am seriously depressed. Then on friday I opened my email there it was. Saying I was funded for help at Modestneeds.org. I cried. Now I just have to get my stuff sent to them by the 26th of December. Awesome. Now I just have to find my light bill. Shit where did I put it? Well looks like I am off to the light company for a copy...maybe now I can NOT lose my stuff in storage. I have been so seriously uspet over this. So much shit happening its not funny. Well I am off to read and check my email...I know its late. Oh well. We only live once right?

Don't hate me...

But I had a dream that something happened to Clay Aiken. OMG, I dreamed that he died or was killed. Usually when I dream something like this something bad happens. Sorry Clay hope nothing happens to ya buddy. But my it was so graphic and real. I woke up crying....and I don't even like the dude. I am desperate to get my own place again its making me nuts. Maybe the weird dreams will stop. Right now, I have a slight headache. Dunno what it is, but it better go away. I don't want sick, I don't need sick...it can go somewhere else.

Nice day.

I am here on my Mom's puter getting ready to go get my little man, he gets out at 3:40. It is pretty much his last week at his school. He is doing better here, he is more relaxed. No fighting between me and his father. You see, we don't get along as well as we used to. He's always treated my family with very little respect. He's said some mean things to my brother and sisters way back when and they haven't forgotten that. Well my Ex thinks his shit doesn't stink. Well I have to remind him everytime I see him that it does. He also thinks that I will never mount to anything in life. What he doesn't see is that I have raised our son...ALONE. With no help from anyone. This is the first time in 6 years that my Mom has helped me out since I moved back here from Rockford.. See when I moved back from Rockford I stayed with my Parents back then too so actually this is the 2nd time she has let us stay with her. That is what I mean. My Mom has helped me in alot of ways, but by letting us stay here with her it means the world to me. I remember when I had my surgery in March she stayed the night with me. That was fun.....I woke up hurting so bad that night I went in and sat on the bed with her crying. Ended up going downstairs and sleeping on the couch cause my tummy hurt so bad.


Which reminds me...I have to make a phone call real quick. And of course no one is around to answer freakin' phones. GOD PEOPLE. I hate this shit. I am starting to get pissed here. When you go to call places for when you need help and no on answers the phone it kinda makes you mad.

Tired monday

Let me get you all up to speed on my life here. I moved out of the place I was staying temporarily. Why? Because I had to. Just don't ask. I am glad I did. OMG, I found some stuff out about my Ex who I was staying with. It upsets me but what he choses to do with his life is his business, but inform anyone who he sleeps with. That really pisses me off. If I would have known, I would never of moved out there to begin with. OMG. If he reads this then he will know...that I know.


I am staying with my Mom and Grandma and its been very nice here with NO stress. No one putting me down or anything. I am helping my Mom with her candles somewhat. Its neat to learn how to make candles, it takes a little to know. But my Mom is so creative. I can't believe it.

I am off to get my little man to bring him back here and do his homework.

Here's a good one for ya!!!!

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Are things getting better?

Honestly NO. But I am the only one to blame. I am sitting here alone. Waiting for tomorrow to come. I am hoping to get the one phone call to make my day better. That is them telling me they have an apartment for me. Why can't it come already? I know they have to wait for the background check and stuff but gezzzz. All I want for Christmas is a place to live. Please Santa, come thru for me at least once in my sad freakin' life. Just when I thought things couldn't get any lower, it does. My Very good friend Alysia told me once that if I say that to myself, I JINX myself. SO I don't say it and then my Ex does....dam him.

Ok how about a movie review. My Ex rented Bad Boys 2....from what I saw of it, it was pretty good. A couple of my favorite songs are in it. Now I am watching Van Damme in Hell. Any movie with Van Damme in it is awesome. Sexy man...nice ass, and just plain sexy. (as my tongue hangs to my knees and shirt is wet from drool).


Well off to relax and watch myself drool over Van Damme.

I am so bad to think....

Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno
anytime soon. You seem to be really into the
whole "love" thing...romantic sex
with perfumed sheets and candles all over the
place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You
value sex and respect your partner too much to
do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3>


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Here are some pics....finally!!!

Here is Jonathan & Kitty Jonathan
Jonathan and the Tree
Jonathan and Me

Awful time to go to Walmart

Yes I said Walmart. I have to return some gloves that my son got. They area pain in the ass. So I am off to Walmart to torture some rude people. One person cuts me off, I will snap on them.

What color are you?

you are orchid #DA70D6

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be. Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Wow...that is me to a extent. I stress alot.!!!

Things are looking up....

Yep they are. If you don't believe me then you know me. I am doing much better than what I was a couple of months ago. But things aren't so well with other things. My Grandparents, I can only pray for you and hope things go well with your lonely lives. Seems the family doesn't want anything to do with you. Don't know why though...wait maybe I do. Won't go there. I do want them to know, please don't ever call me again. I will not answer. I have nothing good to say to you. Just that I still love my Grandma because she is blood. No words for the other person. He isn't blood or nothing to me. I have made mistakes, and I will make up for anything I can replace. Even if that means sending money to them for the time I lived in the trailer. If they don't accept that then I know how their lives will be. Anyway, I am tired. I have been sick now for a couple of days. But my chest started hurting last night. So I think maybe bronchitis. Bert has it too. Funny we aren't a couple but still managed to get sick together. How weird? Well my boobs are itching...cool their healing even more. WHOO HOO!!!!! I am still pleased with my new boobs. Well NOT new but higher up and perkier. I am off to lala land. I need a good dream tonight. SEND ME A HOT ANGEL!!!!!

Snagged from Kate...

I snagged this from Kate who snagged from Karen....



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